Another night that sleep resists you. You wrestle with the bed, beat the pillows, turning them frequently to get to the cool side. Change position. Stare at the ceiling. Get up and put on some music. Drink some water. Think about dreaming. Imagine yourself falling, flying, sinking into a night of rest so refreshing that you wake up the next morning without that same restlessness that followed you like a shadow through fitful hours of shallow sleep. As if your brain will not let you rest. As if there is just too much to do and not enough time. As if your brain will not forgive you for the time it thinks you have wasted.
Try some reiki. Try some deep breaths. Make an insomniac playlist. Try to ease your mind. Coax it away from this rest rebellion. Try to reason with yourself. Make a list of things to do when you can’t sleep.
Colour code headties
Listen to BBC World Service
Write imaginary letters to lost loves
Google bizarre things
Ignore the book you’re supposed to be writing
Create exciting new meggies